HI are you still active here cause ive alot to say hope i get response first from you then ill be able to express mysefl more freeliy

I struggle with not honoring my feminine energy, I tend to let others take advantage, I used to be susceptible to energy vampires, people would read my low self-esteem and they’re able to take advantage. But my scorpio moon and rising have me eventually snapping and they get scared and never speak to me again.
It must be the current transits of Saturn-Jupiter in Capricorn that’s making me more aware of this energy. In this lifetime, I truly believe I was meant to understand self-care and hard work, along with balancing my masculine and feminine. My Sun-conjunct-Saturn, supports this masculine energy to work hard, sometimes too hard at times, while my Moon-conjunct pluto in the 1st house has me going through sometimes a turmoil of trying to balance my emotional energy. I was always told I was a sensitive child who cared what others think. Maybe it’s time to understand the reason and value in why I work so hard at times, is it for others or should it be for more for myself? That way, when I put myself first, and find a job I can enjoy and work hard towards leadership (Capricorn north node, and Sun conjunt Saturn supports being a boss) I can service others through a true, pure place. The times where I was a manager I enjoyed taking care of my employees.

Sidenote-I’m a democratic socialist- I wholeheartedly agree with some of Karl Marx beliefs in community building, we live in a capitalist society that’s driven us to rip each other apart and does not help with the growth of our future generation. Must be my strong 3rd house, Aquarius rebel talking :).

The following is interesting as it pertains to me personally:
“In probing the values of others (which you do with an eye on establishing your own value system), you unconsciously lead them astray. You do not know it, but you undermine almost everything you touch.” though I have noticed opportunities to ‘undermine and lead astray’ which have manifested in revengeful thoughts that I have entertained but successfully refrain from acting out, this might explained why most of the corporations and smaller companies I have worked for have gone out of business…. not by my doing (my power is not that great) but coincidently, by being hired within the last 2-3 years of each companies’ collapse, (a not so impressive on my business resume/CV)… and,

“At worst, these natives are claim jumpers, with so little invested in themselves and with so little respect for others, that they claim what belongs to a friend, spouse, or other partner for themselves without even realizing it.” this statement manifests in my life as, ‘the overly enthusiastic friend,’ for example, I have to firmly tell myself (repeatedly), ‘this is not your home’ and stop myself from re-arranging a friend’s home if I feel they have not placed their furnisher appropriately.

I’ve studied astrology for decades now as a means to understand myself and others in my life. I’m glad I stumbled on this site, in my quest to learn more about Nodes.

With my natal Sun, Mercury and Mars in Gemini 8th house with my Scorpio Rising and Moon, I do feel like I have x-ray vision and or hyper hearing abilities into other’s thoughts and behaviors, which makes casual acquaintances uneasy.

Came across this thread when trying to rationalise my own North Node in Scorpio/South Node in Taurus with North Node in the 2nd House when both general explanations tend to contradict each other. It’s interesting that no one (experienced astrologer or not) has commented so far on such a situation…can anyone throw some light on this please as I’m sure it would help many others with similar configurations.

I agree. Even despite my tough childhood i never had a self esteem problem. A lot of this interpretation is utter rubbish