Or is that a trick question because Aries north node careers include “editor?”

I have this Aries north node conjunct my venus Jupiter and MC in the ninth (in the eight of equal).
I grew up to be a damn doormat,now I grow it out. I had so much desire to get into the fashion branches,I had so many opportunities even,but the more I had the worse it became for me to decide,I wanted to have the best so everyone would profit from it,the fairest and limitless. But I gave seriously way too much weight into other’s opinions. In the end I left it cause I thought others deserve it more,those who are less complex,the leaders,little did I know I am a leader too.
Still I do care about others view,but I am now aware it is not
the end of the story,it is my life and my decision what I do,want or make. It’s scary and not easy sometimes and can be lonely,but that’s really needed to become a better version of myself.

The Nodes are guidelines to find the way for a soul to incarnate and ascend to its fullest. Aries energy guides a person to discover her unique frequency, while 7th House indicates the best harmonies to play. It’s a brilliant match because one can harmonise the experiences of Libra’s South Node quite naturally. The metaphor of music is accurate – you know the cords, then you find the tune, then the rhythm (while making sounds all along the way so it helps to scratch the word “noisy” out of the vocabulary ASAP).

The commentary You try to make coherent refers to something that is shaped like a sphere. And You are inside. The sphere is cohesive even though it’s hard to comprehend details that are opposing each other. But mind is flexible – it will naturally get accustomed to this global outline.