Although I am commenting 6 years after your experience and beautiful story, I hope you receive this message. You are an amazing soul, please know that. I’m not certain what you do to pay your living expenses. If however, you have not already begun writing books, poems, or the like and sharing them with the world, I wholeheartedly encourage you to do so. You are naturally gifted with a captivating way with words.
More than anything, I hope this message finds you in good health and peace within your soul.

Best Wishes,
Leslie

I love this. 26 over here and kinda looking at the future like what is gonna happen to me?! But I trust I will have a loving partner to be by my side and whether I have a partner or not, I’m getting out stronger than before my Saturn return.

Anyone reading through the comments and feeling down for any reason, you can do it! If it is our intention to inspire other’s to decency, then we can only start with ourselves by being the person we’d like to see in the world.

I am amazed and shocked. I have learned astrology from 1990. Now I live in Berlin and I have joined the local astrology Center, that is lead by Markus Jehle.

But, I have actively escaped the knowledge I know. For example, I do not like my North Node position at all. It is in Gemini in the 11th house and I would like to be alone, mostly. Now, when I read about Saturn in Pieces I understand that urge very well, in addition, that it is the shadow of my South Node in the 5th house that likes more interpersonal intimate relationships than working in the groups.

I can admit that everything you write is accurate. Money-things has been a very big issue for me. I have lost so much money for other people and recently, I have really paid attention to this pattern. I feel that people do not see me, they see me as a walking never-ending cash machine that they can use whenever they want and need.

And you tell me about it here. That it is just not just my imagination, but the thing that is truly happening and I must do something about it – or. Yes, I am broke, abandoned because my mone ran out. I collect it again, alone, because those people do not help me, and then I just wait for the queue of people on my door, wanting my money for the reason or another. They tell me that they need it more than I do – and often I believe them. I am guilty if I have “too much” so I organise myself having nothing. It happens every time like this. But, now, I think that I cannot do it. I am old already so I do not have any more time for this game.

In general, I hate my life as it is given. I am so disappointed about life, that it gives these burdens, lessons, and nothing fun. That I must do things that I do not want to do, like this Gemini-thing with my North Node.

I am pissed off about this life, yet I know that it is true. I do not only know, but I have also experienced that it is true. Life did not give me anything I wanted to have and seemingly won’t give it. I grief it, I grief my life and just wait the day I can leave this all behind and never come back again.

Any way, astrology has given some logic to the whole mess that is called “my life”.

Why we must be born here when it is so difficult and painful the whole thing? why? This is what I cannot understand and I see no reason for it.

Thank you and hello!

Thank you for that appreciation. I wrote my master’s thesis on Eichmann’s trial so have thought a great deal about him — and Arendt’s thoughts on him especially.