Same situation n same question.

Romantic surprises !

I sat by myself today and for no reason I broke down in tears, like literally breaking down, I dont know…… its just that moment when something happens and then you remember how your life was before meeting a certain someone and just the pain they had you endured during the entire 2 years, all the trials, all the confusion, all the disruption, all the chaos, all the things that because of them; created such a standstill and because of that everything is just one fucking big mess and cant seem to ever be fixed and still I honestly dont know how to look past any of it, and because of that one thing I had to rearrange absolutely everything at a time when I was just done doing a major revamp….I swear I have tried but every time I find myself in a precarious situation, I know had I not got entangled with a false alarm, my life would have been much better. Its like everything since that moment has been a nightmare in my Professional life which as a result have reflected in my personal life too…..I swear to God sometimes I feel like I am about to lose my mind, especially when I rememeber the chain of events. God I dont know why, I dont know why I had to endure so much for the sake of what, I just cant understand what did I do to have been treated like that, I mean I had fo put my life on hold which has created a major set back for me in so many ways, but you know what I am not going to give up, I am going to keep fighting until I am back to where I know I should be. I just hope no one else will every have to experience this turmoil.

I just want to be left alone to fix my mind, my life and my work situation to the way it was before July 2015. I know I will get it back on track again….right now its hard compared to what I was producing prior, but I will get there… I am not a fucking quitter and I’ll be dammed before I give up!! My ranking might have dropped because of all the changes and reindexing, it will cost me a bit to do some seo and thing, but fuck it, it will get better.