Still I’m feeling the way I felt from the start. I’ve searched  for him in every dream, I’ve waited  all my life to find him, until suddenly he appeared, and I remember  when I first saw him, and the first time I heard his voice, and I remember how my heart melted, and how  I  thought;  how could I  truly have ever  survived without  him. 

I’m here thinking, and wondering to myself, just how will I ever get through this…and with all the memories he’s left me with, I just cant get over him, and never in a quintillion years would I have ever believed that there’d be someone who’d make me feel this type of way, like literally tugging on my every emotions….missing  him 
so much…so much more than I can describe!  

Now here I am, really thought I was strong enough, but now I miss him even more…. I miss his warmth, I miss his touch and  I miss the way he pulls me closer in to him, I miss his  soft kisses, I miss saying so many things I want to run by him … I really don’t know what the hell I’m saying , but, I just want to say that  “I love him” and that I just love him.  

And I want to let him know something else, he is the only, only one that’s ever truly challenged by heart , then turns out conquering my entire soul,  and now I’m not sure if thats a good thing, a bad thing or just that exact thing I’ve been wanting… to feel secure in knowing there is someone who truly gets me; my mood, my weaknesses, my strengths, my silence, my messy mind, my dirty thoughts, my passion for love, and my everything else in between; that only true soulful lovers could understand, but if its one thing I’ve learnt, is that focus requires more than a commitment  to make anything last, but that the one and only thing that is required to keep the fire burning; is LOVE, and if nothing else, I can, beyond any reasonable feeling of uncertainty, confirm  that what we have, is…not by choice, not by chance, not an old fling, not by obligation and its certainly  not  in our imagination what we feel for one another….BUT infact, its a whole lot more  than love, it is two hearts with but a single beat, where every single moment is simply magical! 

I know I have not been perfect, but a more faithful heart he will never find…anywhere, ever, at all! I just pray  it wont be too late before we find a way; to face whatever emotions we think is likely to create  pain, and  risk it all…and finally be together… because we both know this will never end….as neither of us knows how to control these intense emotions, neither of us knows how to let go, and knowing each time just opens one more door to all the  fire burning deep inside our souls.
I do believe all good things come in time, especially at that place where two hearts were made to meet, now; did he make me change my mind about love?, oh yes!, I certainly wasn’t looking for love, but I must admit, I’ve never met a man quite like him….ever!💞

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